2008 passed by in a blur...but before it leaves us completely, I would like to make a shout out to all the people that made my 2008 a meaningful one:
to all the people I've hurt and wronged, I AM VERY VERY SORRY....
to all those who have helped me during my trials, THANK YOU VERY MUCH for all the support, kind words of encouragement and for always telling me to stand for what I believe in.
to all those who have wronged me one way or another, I FORGIVE YOU...hopefully when we see each other in 2009, we could exchange sincere hi's and hello's...we don't need to be friends...let's just all be Christians and live life with no grudges in our hearts.
to my friends, THANK YOU for all the laughter, tears, disappointments, alcohol and kwentuhan...I know I haven't been there that much this year and I thank you for all the understanding and acceptance. Our distance will never ever tear us apart.
to my family, THANK YOU for always being by my side despite my quirks. I LOVE YOU and I wish each of you GOOD HEALTH and BLESSINGS not just this next year but for the years to come...
to the LOVE OF MY LIFE...thank you for being the greatest part of my 2008! thank you for never letting go as we ride this rollercoaster that we call life.. I can't wait for more years of togetherness with you...I LOVE YOU....
December is the time for collecting stickers for the long awaited Starbucks Planner...Tis is also the season that I get to savor my ultimate favorite coffee drink, PEPPERMINT MOCHA...
I was at my utter disgust when I rushed to Starbucks yesterday, super excited to get my first dose of Peppermint Mocha when they told me that it's not available anymore!!
WTF?!? Starbucks just broke a lot of people's hearts... Bring back my PEPPERMINT MOCHA!!!
I am a member of way too many online networking sites...Priorities, priorities....
Facebook is staying...so is Multiply...I haven't gone to Plurk in ages, and Friendster is overrated. MySpace is a waste of time, and Tagged is no different from Friendster, maybe suckier...
So goodbye to Friendster and the rest...I'm sure I won't miss you...if by next week, you log in and see that your friend list is down by 1, go figure...
I really thought that this year would be different. Generally, I've been really happy the past few months and this has been witnessed by a lot of my friends and family...so i thought that I'd be spared this time.
It just hit me this afternoon....for no apparent reason, I was just down with the blues...again...the same feeling I get ever year, the week before my birthday. CRAP!!
Is there any scientific explanation to this feeling? Is there a pill that can cure this icky downright crappy state? Let me know...you know where to find me...
Oh and for the first time in 30 something years, I won't be throwing a party...maybe next year...we'll see...
Something always brings me back to you...It never takes too long. No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.
You hold me without touch...You keep me without chains. I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.
Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity. Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be. But you're on to me and all over me.
You loved me 'cause I'm fragile when I thought that I was strong. But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.
I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on the ground. But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go. The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down......
Something always brings me back to you...It never takes too long. No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.
My good friend and Freestyle's guitarist, Tat, once told me that relationships are like music. Most women often hurry towards the bridge of the song while they're still stepping into the verse. We skip so many beautiful lines and melodies because we simply can't wait.
Single girls my age probably commit that same mistake. Maybe it's the pressure of having to see all your friends who are married or engaged, or who just gave birth to their nth child. Maybe it's the age thing and we're almost past our deadline. But for some reason, we end up fastforwarding what we want out of our "meantime" moments and in return, we end up with meantime people...
I am currently at the intro of my song. The melody is kinda catchy at first and the words are full of cheese in it but I don't mind...I like this intro. I'm not sure how short or long this song is going to be but one thing's for sure...I'm definitely gunna take my time before the chorus starts slapping me on the face...
...you were the wind that blew me down...you've clearly swept me off my feet and in my state of vertigo I can't look down...can't feel the ground so will you catch me...
Lucas Scott is wise for his age (well, the writers of One Tree Hill are).
I can't help but rekindle one of their episodes...this is for EVERYONE who is at their crossroads right now...
"There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment, you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on path? Will others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be haunted by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Each morning you choose to move forward or simply give up."
"There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment who will you be? Will you let down your defenses, and find solace in someone unexpected? Will you reach out? Will you face your greatest fear bravely? And move forward with faith. Or will you succumb to the darkness in your soul?"
I’m having another Jerry Maguire moment right now. So many things are lurking in my brain and I just need to write them all here before they get lost with the other million parodies and clichés swimming around every minute of everyday in my head.
I hate season enders…instead of happy endings, they give you dark and twisted cliff-hangers that make you think about your own life. Are we always gunna be stuck at the end of a cliff?
I think I’m now starring in my very own season ender. I still don’t know how this story is going to end...but I sure have a great kick-ass theme song for it….
…changed my mind…I don’t feel like writing anymore…
Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.
You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.
Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.
...everything will be back to the way it was...wish it was that easy...
Would you catch me if I fall out of what I fell in Don't be surprised if I collapse down at your feet again I don't want to run away from this I know that I just don't need this
Thanks to my soulsister, I've discovered that the teaser is out!!! yey!!! I can't wait!! This is soooo intense...for real...goosebumps galore!!! see...i can't even have straight sentences...Edward dazzles me!!!!
Have you ever read "The Secret"? Do you actually believe that it really works? That a person's thoughts, emotions and beliefs cause a change in the physical world that attracts positive or negative experiences that corresponds to the aforementioned thoughts, with or without the person taking action to attain such experiences (Wikipedia)?
Do you actually believe that you have the power to create your destiny by simply thinking of it and wishing for it with all your heart?
I tried it and believe me, it's not a piece of cake...especially when people with negative thoughts surround you all the time...when situations cause you to think that sometimes, this day isn't going very well...traffic sucks, you're late and you can't find a parking space, money is never enough, yadayadayada...
But it helped me somehow...it helped me see the positive side of things. It helped me become more patient towards waiting for different outcomes in different kinds of situations. It helped me become hopeful. It helped me believe that this universe is one beautiful place to live in.
As usual, I was catching up on my One Tree Hill and the last scene of this particular episode struck me....I guess I'm in the right track after all....
"Make a wish and place it in your heart. Anything you want. Everything you want.
Do you have it? Good. Now believe it can come true.
You never know where the next miracle is going to come from, the next smile, the next wish come true. But if you believe that it's right around the corner and you open your heart and mind to the possibility of it, To the certainty of it, You just might get the thing your wishing for.
The world is full of magic. You just have to believe in it.
I've done this before but what the heck...I feel like doing it again...and I'm tagging 10 different people this time! =)
The rules:
Each blogger starts with 10 random facts/habits about themselves
Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their 10 things and post these rules
At the end of your blog, you need to choose 10 people to get tagged and list their names
Don't forget to leave them a comment telling they're tagged, and to read your blog
My 10 things:
1. I sometimes wish I was a vampire...or marry someone who is a vampire.. 2. I lie about my age (especially to those I just met..haha!) 3. I procrastinate...I'm such a slacker, a crammer, and I usually work best under pressure. 4. i have a very high tolerance when in comes to pain...I have tattooes, piercings, and I am allergice to pain relievers. 5. i daydream when I'm in the shower, before going to bed, and while driving...don't worry, i'm very much capable of multi-tasking. 6. i believe in the law of attraction... 7. i am fond of someone who i haven't seen in 2 years and is 7,307 miles away from me... 8. i am looking forward to december because so many things will transpire then...twilight the movie will be out and Chris will be coming home by then. 9. i believe that men are all babies and that they are not capable of fidelity...they may be loyal, but never faithful..there's a difference. 10. i'm on a diet...even if it's not yet obvious
I'm tagging: Ivy, Hershey, Marga, Magel, Doms, Carla Miranda, Winner Santos, at kung sino pang may gusto!!
They say that sanity is the ability to tell what's real from unreal. Some say that sanity is one cozy lie. Others say that it is a madness put to good use.
Whatever it means, I think everyone needs their own dose of sanity. Amidst all the problems that people are facing...amidst the termoil...amidst the hatred, the poverty, the corruption, the complexities that we call life...we need to feel sane amidst the insanity.
I need my dose of sanity. I need my chill pill. I just wanna die for a moment and experience heaven. Just for awhile...
Be Right Back. I'm on my way to my quest for sanity....
This is the perfect movie for people who have been cynical about living in a world with a "happily ever after".
For those who have been blinded by doubt and who have been afraid of wanting to trust in the magic of love, I suggest that you see this movie. I'm not saying that the film will wash your fears away. But just for a moment, maybe, just maybe, it'll make you think that happy endings might still exist.
Maybe...
Anyway, I'm glad that one of my favorite songs from the movie was nominated as Best Song in a Motion Picture during the last Academy Awards.
We’re so close to reaching that famous happy end and almost believing this was not pretend...let’s go on dreaming for we know we are so close and still so far...
Disclaimer: I did not write this piece. But it's just so inspiring that I decided to post it here. It's Ivy's fault. Haha! Anyway, this is for all my girlfriends..
Bato bato sa langit, tamaan ay 'wag magalit....sige, di na ko magagalit.. ;)
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He calls, he tells me he misses me, asks me out often, is relentlessly sweet and thoughtful. I am always on cloud nine and unapologetically unable to wipe the grin off my face. I am in love with him and although he hasn't said so yet, I am sure he loves me back. Herein lies the tragedy.
With men, until he hasn’t asked you to be his girlfriend, you are not on safe ground. No matter how few the minutes are between his text messages or his phone calls, even if he has tried to hold your hand, carefully picked off the eyelash from under your eye, and wiped the crumb that was perched on your upper lip, assume that he just wants to be friends. Assume otherwise and you’ll be in for a great big heartbreak.
When faced with the same given in the same situation, no matter where they come from, they will all do the same thing. Enter the questions women love to ask:
(1) Why hasn’t he called me the past few days?
(2) If he likes being with me so much, why doesn't he leave his girlfriend/wife for me?
There is just one answer to all these questions: he doesn’t love you enough.
He hasn’t left his girlfriend or his wife for you. Sometimes men are looking for icing on the cake in the form of a woman friend who plugs in all the gap that his better half cannot fill.She is usually somebody with slightly different qualities than his mate. He enjoys being with her, calls her all the time, consults with her about life-altering decisions but does not really come out and make a decision about who he wants to be with simply because he is in a “safe place."
He has the best of both worlds and doesn’t need to make a choice. If he hasn’t left her for you yet, chances are, he won’t. Telltale signs: she is still his priority. When she calls and asks him to pick her up, he hurriedly finishes his meal and tells you that he has to go. When you ask him out on days when he has to take her home, he’ll say he can’t.
You notice that you are only together when his schedule permits it and when seeing you don’t conflict with his time with her. You get the crumbs.
This kind of arrangement only tells you that he doesn’t love you enough to forsake his girlfriend for you. If he takes a chance by leaving her for you, you’re sure that he loves you. Most men would stay with the safe, the tried and tested over risking everything. It takes a lot for them to, believe me.
Obviously, you don’t want to be second best or the pangtawid-gutom. Find someone who will make you his only priority. Although they pretend and seem otherwise, men are not idiots when it comes to matters of the heart. They know full well what they want out of the relationship. They do not need to be rescued by you. They don’t need hints, carefully crafted text messages or highway billboards that promise them a bed of roses with you. If they really like you, they will do anything to get you to like them back.
Grey's Anatomy gave me so many words and lines to think about...subconsciously, most of the people who are avid viewers of the show live with the hope that these scripts or lines or narrations are true.
Two lines are running in my mind right now...one came from Izzie Stevens.
"Just because people do horrible things, it doesn't always mean they're horrible people"
..think about that. If YOU are reading this right now (I know you are coz you read my blogs..), I just want you to know that I don't think you're horrible. What you did or are doing may not be right but YOU will always have a choice and I know you'll do the right thing eventually.
"It's good to be scared. It means you still have something to lose" (Richard Webber)
...I'm scared now. I'm scared of what the future will hold. And I don't really know if this line is appropriate but it stung me awhile ago. I have so many fears right now. Shallow fears actually...fears that someday I will overcome...fears that will one day disappear because we simply get immuned to the thought of being afraid....until we become numb...until we realize that we may have lost something or someone...but we will live. Because there's nothing else we can do..but live.
